I've always been a dreamer. There's no doubting it. While I have to make plans that are more realistic, I also tend to make some extraordinary ones as well. Broadway has been my biggest dream since I can remember. Not just going there, but being on Broadway. It's the main reason I kept taking dance when I was younger. The theater is magical. I did plays and musicals when I was younger, but once I got into high school and college I never had time because the musicals were always the same season as volleyball. Rehearsals would have been impossible for me to make due to practices and conditioning. If I could go back and change something, I would most definitely have never stopped taking dance when we moved. I went and checked out a few studios in Springfield when we moved here, but the classes were still behind me. I had an amazing studio and teacher in Memphis. The classes here were slower and I would have ended up taking private lessons with a teacher I didn't feel could compete with the one I had had for 10 years. It breaks my heart that I didn't keep on with something I loved, but I made a choice. I took a few classes in college at a local studio in Fulton and had the same problem. The tap class I took still used the heeled tap shoes. I stopped using heeled taps when I was 9 years old. It was hard to take instruction from someone who was teaching me steps that I hadn't done since I was really young and some of the girls in my class were having trouble with them. I need to be challeneged to reach my full potential.
Okay, I realize I have been rambling. This all came from SYTYCD starting up again. It is my favorite show on TV, possible ever, and it makes me realize that I should never have quit dancing. I'm not saying that I could be on the show, but I won't ever know because I stopped doing something that I loved. I made the promise to myself that when/if I move to STL this fall, I'm going to try and take a few classes somewhere. I'll probably be a little rusty but it'll be worth it. I won't give up on my dreams just because people tell me that I need to have a plan and be more realistic.
